I have always had a strong African American identity. While I realize that I fall into the category of “pigmentally challenged,” I have never in my life been called a white person. So imagine my shock this evening when my five year old kaka (brother) called me “Mzungu” (European or white person). I looked around the room and said, “Wapi? Wapi?!” (Where? Where?!) He laughed because it was obvious that he was talking to me and while I knew he was calling me “white person,” I could not seem to reconcile the term with how I see myself. Ethnically ambiguous, mixed, Dominican, etc. are all terms that I have heard from strangers searching for an answer to the fated question, “What are you?” My general answer to this question is, “I am a human…what are you? (with a puzzled look on my face).” But then I usually get the follow up question that I love because it is just so ridiculous! “I mean, where are you from?” people may ask. I usually say that I am from Michigan, and after I see the frustration I finally cave in and tell them that I racially identify as Black. I find that in America, people like to be politically correct and not talk about race. However, in Tanzania this is not the case.
My skin is toughening because Tanzanians just call you what you are. For example, my Language and Cross Cultural facilitator was trying to explain the difference between skinny and fat. So he went around the room pointing at American trainees and categorizing them as either “mnene” (fat) or “mwembamba” (thin). We tried to explain that in America, we do not tell people (especially women) that they are fat because it’s considered a negative thing. Of course we know they are fat, and they probably know they are fat, but we rarely say it out loud (at least not to their face). In Tanzania, saying someone is fat is just like saying they have brown hair. In fact, being heavy is a sign of power and wealth. As a result, the term “mnene” can become a compliment. Unfortunately, light skin is also valued and calling someone Mzungu is not considered rude. It’s just a fact, like mnene. Still, I cannot imagine going around to friends or strangers saying “Hello white person” or “Hello Chinese person” in America…
So now you must be wondering what I did to hopefully prevent unnecessary, wrongful Mzungu labeling…well I did like the African women do and got my hair braided! (Think early Alicia Keys look). I told my Kaka that Mzungu hair can’t hold braids and so I must not be Mzungu. He seemed to buy this logic, but he is five. I doubt this will be the last time I am called Mzungu in Africa, and the whole idea of race just makes me laugh. It’s so arbitrary and clearly the lack of exposure to people of different races allows Tanzanians to use Mzungu easily. I should add that a fellow trainee who is Mexican was also called Mzungu last week. Sometimes race just makes no sense to me. In one part of the world we operate by a “one-drop rule,” and in other countries, anyone lighter than those who live near the equator are “Mzungu.” In Tanzania, we call people Dada (sister) or Kaka (brother) and my hope is that one day the rest of the world can follow this model. The next time someone asks me, “What are you?” I will just say, “Don’t you know? I am your sister.”
Ohhh boy. This post made me feel very awkward. Not the fact that you wrote it, but just picturing these interactions--a little boy calling you a white person, your teacher going around the room and calling some people skinny and some people fat. agh!!! (If it makes you feel any better me and my sisters used to think my mom was white growing up and would tell her she was a white person...hahah!!!) anyways, yeah, the way each culture deals with race is always different. If you think about it, the way the U.S. has historically dealt with blackness is somewhat bizarre as well...if you were 1/8 black you were black whereas if you were 1/8 chinese or 1/8 native american were you totally considered those things?..probably not. After spending time in Brazil, I know a lot of Brazilians thought the American perception was so weird b/c their whole system of dealing w/ race is based on how you look. Anyways, I hope that people don't keep calling you a white person the whole time youre there :) And if they do, you can use it as an opportunity to educate and just say that in the U.S., black people come in all shades. :)
ReplyDeleteImagine how awkward I feel! Race is an interesting topic and someone could write a book comparing race across cultures.
ReplyDeleteYou are learning so much. I think that calling everyone "sister" and "brother" would be a wonderful way of dealing with the "you" and "them" mentality of our world leaders. Your hair looks wonderful. Keep enjoying your new adventures.
ReplyDeleteI agree with your mom. I would embrace calling everyone 'brother' or 'sister'- as that is precisely what we are- the world's family. Your posts are so helpful for the rest of us to have a view of the world you are in. Thank you again for sharing your life with us.
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